My Journey as a Mom: The magical time of pregnancy and the horrors that followed

After being fired by my psychiatrist just before my wedding, I never really took care of my mental health. So anyway during pregnancy, I continued to feel down low and also sometimes too angry with my loved once which I regret the most.

My postpartum story is something else, I had tears roll down my eyes for the simplest things. Sometimes I can't control my emotions and anxiety was through the roof about my relationship with my husband and my relationship with my family.

All the support I had from my family dried out almost immediately after I brought my daughter came home. My second cousins and their families cut ties off with me and my family. And even in my family my mom was the only one I had truly everyone else kind of faded to the background. My brother was my gaurdian he took me and my child to doctor's appointment for vaccination and everything in between. God that feeling not to have a supportive husband was the most horrible. He gave into his ego and started ignoring me in very bad way, he doesn't return my calls days un-end. The difficult person that I am, couldn't believe what was happening to me and I kept trying and I held an anger that was so wast it could overtake my whole life.

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This is a ongoing series a self exploration. I will sharing my story its not inspirational or whatever its just there to read, empathise and to let you understand there are stories like this. May be I will be able to convenience you to share more of yours in the Support Group.